I’m struggling today. I ended a friendship of 14 years. It was always a hard relationship to define, but now it’s definition is over. It probably should have been over a long time ago but neither of us could put an end to it. We inevitably kept returning to one another every time we tried. Truthfully, I don’t know how I’m going to cope without this person in my life but I need to resist the urge to be in contact because with the way things are, it’s what’s best for both of us. Admittedly, I’ve never been very good at loss.  This friendship that just ended has meant more to me than any other I’ve ever had. I’ve never invested myself in a…