I feel so fucking lost lately. I swing between feeling completely numb and cripplingly sad. ECT didn’t work for me at all. It didn’t improve my mood or my OCD symptoms. Instead, it’s robbed me of memories I had, and the ability to make new memories. It’s kinda terrifying at times. There was one day where I had treatment on Friday and the next thing I knew, I was waking up on Sunday morning with literally no memory of the time in between. Apparently, I was a bit of a zombie, who couldn’t even figure out how to order a pizza without help. I’m told I spent the rest of the time sitting on the couch staring into the abyss. It scares me when…