New mix of medications are giving some less than awesome side effects. I know generally side effects always sound terrible, but there’s a side effect that my Anafranil can give and that is an orgasm whenever you sneeze, which I admit doesn’t sound like the most terrible thing I’ve ever heard. Alas, I only got the shitty side effects.
The worst side effects of Anafranil are Myoclonus which for me are quite violent jerks and twitches, Tinnitus, the memory impairment and the ginormous swollen sore breasts that leak for no apparent reason. Fun times, right?
And then there’s Zeldox, which gives me the worst breath ever, cotton mouth all the time, weight gain, muscle aches, and increased anxiety.
Combine the dry mouth effects of Seroquel on top of the Cotton Mouth the Zeldox has given me and my mouth is literally as dry as Karl Pilkington’s sense of humour. It’s given me headaches, indigestion, backache, abdominal pain, and probably most seriously, suicidal ideation. I’ve found myself daydreaming about ending my life. Not planning, but just passive thoughts at the moment, like “It would be so much better if I just didn’t wake up in the morning…” or I find myself thinking I should take my car and drive it head first into a brick wall at 100km an hour. Things I haven’t thought of in quite a while. I’m not at the point where anyone should worry, I promise. These side effects are still all things that I’m willing to endure if it means that my Depression, Obsessive/Intrusive Thoughts, Psychotic delusions and Paranoia are more controlled than they would be if I was unmedicated. Unmedicated, I suspect I’d lose my mind completely and probably be hospitalized against my will. My current meds allow me maintain living within the community, and able to function when it comes to day to day activities. I’d take all the leaky boobs and cotton mouth in the world if that’s what it takes to stay well.